Been at work for a week and a half. Was busier for the first week, but this week has been quite slack. So far. All or most of the seniors are going for some course tomorrow so I just have to finish whatever work I have left over and that's it for the day, presumably.

They seem to have a knack of piling work on me just before lunch or just when I'm about to knock off for the day. Today was super slack lah. Then at around 5.20, one of them came in and told me to do stuff. Soon, they came, one after another, all looking for me. Dunno why...I was the only one they were looking for lor. The rest had no work to do. About 5 seniors came to give me work. So fun right. Good thing my friends stayed back to help me to finish some of the more urgent ones so I could go home earlier. Ah well.

Yay. Decided to go to city harvest. Never thought I would. Was a bit apprehensive about going there cos it was a huge church and well, doesn't really fit into the traditional picture of a church. The lights, the music, yar. Not that I haven't been to a charasmatic church before. Went to FCBC from pri 6 to about sec 2 or 3. Yar. But FCBC didn't have the strange coloured sweeping lights.

I went for the christmas service there. And it wasn't too bad. The volume and all. Or maybe cos I got a little deafer since I left FCBC? Dunno. Also watched a couple of online services. Was still skeptical lah. But wanted to give it a shot. Went for bible study with rachel on saturday at someone's place. Also had potluck lunch there. Found out how friendly the people were. Was still a little strange.

When to the expo on sunday morning. Rachel said to leave at 7 to try and avoid the mock terrorist attack exercise thingy cos apparently the church had a tipoff. So right, we went and found out that the exercise had already started when we reached the mrt station. Had to take a shuttle bus from outram to bugis. And it was a wet day. Well at least we got there on time, if not about an hour early.

Well. The service was good. The message was quite relevant. I still have a lot of things to learn. Even though I've been a christian ever since I can remember cos I grew up in a christian family, I haven't really grown a lot. I know facts and stuff picked up from sunday school. But I just haven't been able to grow.

Let me list down the churches I've been to and stayed on for a period of time. I went to Queenstown Baptist Church since young until pri 3 or 4. Then I followed my aunt to Bethesda Community Church in bedok cos apparently the kids church was quite fun. They had games and skits and songs etc. Yar. Then I went to FCBC with my mum in pri 6 and joined an mgs cell group in sec 1 there. Went to Lutheran Church of Our Redeemer in sec 3 I think. Stayed until now. How many were there? 4 right?

Just hope I don't backslide again. Keep doing that...over and over. Blah. It's no fun, trust me.

But now I'm not worried about my future anymore. Even though it's still vague and uncertain, I feel like I'm going to just trust God to lead me wherever He wants to. Cos everything always works out somehow.

Now I just want to serve Him. But I'll need guidance. I know. Otherwise more likely than not, I'll backslide again. Thought I could go it alone. Thought it would be ok with just God and me. Apparently not.

Oh Lord, keep the fire burning. Don't let me fall away again...